Well its been a few weeks so maybe its worth updating.
Today is my birthday I turn 29. For the past 13 years I've been woken up in the middle of the night to be wished a happy birthday from my wife. She always wanted to be the first to say something but also waited until the actual time I was born.
Its the little [censored] like that that is gonna make today hard. Otherwise it's just another day.
5 months since bomb drop in 3 days. She moved out over a month ago. I've been no contact since. Nothing changes in any way on that front. I know she's out with different guys most of the week. She has a tendency to frequent the bar that she knows my family basically live at.
I'm still just trying to focus on whatever I can. I go out and about as much as possible. Clean and work on house stuff at home. Back to regular time at the office now so that keeps me busy most of the days. I don't hurt as much all the time anymore and rarely cry like I use too. I read through a box of cards last night virtually all the years we were together. Was looking for some old ticket stubs for a frame I was putting together mostly. Its funny how devoted someone can be in the past. How easy it is to make promises and eventually break them.
For the first time in over decade I have no idea what the next year of my life is for. I have no real goals or ambitions. I really hope someday that feeling fades. That there is a purpose again.
Hope everyone else is doing well today. Thanks to any of you bothering to follow my story.
