Thanks, vu. I don’t just have poison ivy, I have it in the worst places imaginable. I have never been so uncomfortable in my life. It’s seriously awful. I’m getting minimal relief and had to throw out any fun activities I had plan for like my last weekend off in forever because I just can’t stand this.
And it has given me a forced hiatus from dating for a while. I’m probably going to look like I have leprosy for some time. And leprosy where you don’t want it
I do and I don’t firmly know what I want in a man/ relationship. Part of me would just love an activities partner. There is just so much I want to do/ try/places to go that just isn’t fun alone. Part of me just wants to find a chill dude woth the same interests and hang out. But then there is my schedule which is absolutely awful. Between parenting and 2 jobs, I have very random free time. It stinks. In the same breath I also want a healthy partner for a deep connection. But I feel like that is almost impossible to find. Part of me has given up on that. Doesn’t make me want it any less, it just makes me realize it is likely not in the cards for me. I’ve had one semi close experience to it since my divorce many moons ago, and that ended poorly. Other people date for a month right after divorce, and boom, find the one! It’s just happening that way for me.
I think I am just going to throw away 2020. I won’t be able to do those adventures and activities I crave. Dating is a no go. I’ll just work . And come 2021, make a better commitment to making time for myself and enjoying life.
