My W keeps insisting we go to coparenting counseling, even though at every turn in front of a mediator or mandatory reporter she lobs as many accusations at me as possible. I badly want to support our children -- I also have zero trust in my W right now. I believe coparenting counseling will be a fiasco until her actions and behaviors change.
It is also funny how her lawyers paint me as an awful person. As an example, because I believe she should start going back to work as she is fully capable (she used to make a 6-figure salary with ease), they paint me as some financially controlling monster who has no empathy for her difficult circumstances. I'm paying almost 5 figures in monthly support in the meantime and maxing out credit cards just to survive, but I am controlling... These things used to bother me, especially as someone who cared so much that other people thought I was a good person. Now I see through the game -- it is just how family law goes. I'm going to be free of this nightmare eventually and won't be looking back.
It used to bother me if people disapproved of me. I used to have anxiety about confrontation. I used to feel things were entirely my fault even if I knew intellectually that was not true. This whole process feels like exposure therapy to help me confront my issues.
I can tell things will get resolved legally in the next several months, and I should relax a little bit and let things run their course.
