Sigh. So, I finished crazy day 6 out of 7 for work. This week began cheerleading, so it’s a new sort of running around around and pressure on the schedule. My ex doesn’t actually partake in all of this . Tonight after cheer she has a friends birthday party until 11pm. My diet has been awful this week woth all the running around, also my daughters. But I did manage to get her fed. One night with a healthy meal. I went out to dinner with my cousin last night and it was fun and we promised to make it an every 2 week thing.
I’ve been having an extra special string of bad luck lately. The dumbest stuff I couldn’t even make up if I tried. Pretty much want to lay in my bed just avoid the outside world for at least a week. Not an option.
Me and that guy are done. After this weekend, I said no way. He was lame about effort and what happened this weekend, and I just said, well, good luck to you! And he said “ what’s, that’s it?”. He still texts. I give one word answers. Forget that. I decided to delete my dating apps for now. It stinks out there. And I am not in a place to go through anymore bad to get to the good. Many years has been enough, and if I don’t break, I go nuts.
The highlight of my day is seeing a COVID patient who was on the brink of death WALK back in to thank everyone. He was my dads age, a strong guy, worked out every day ...ZERO comorbidities, and healthier than most 30 year olds.... he ended up on a vent with critical illness quadriplegia ( he became so ill he became so deconditioned he couldn’t move) he went to an acute inpatient rehab and now he is as good as new. It’s unreal to see . And it was definitely tear jerking .
Today would have been my 16th wedding anniversary which is stupid to think about as I was only married for 4 years, and he’s been married for 9 years already. Just another day. Although it was also one year ago today M’s mom’s house burnt down. I hope the repairs are done and she’s back in. I imagine it is and that’s why he put himself back in the dating market.
Anyways.its just me myself and I trying to get through some challenges again.
