Lack of self control is the #1 enemy of DB. If self control were easy, no one would smoke, drink, or be overweight. Its very hard, but that's what it takes to turn things around, commitment to being counter-intuitive and fighting your impulses.
So I reigned it in....
I'm fighting my impulses.
I'm in such a bad place today and perhaps that I'm having to email another atty every other hour in negotiating a settlement is causing my head to be on fire.