You speak a great deal of sense and trust me I am trying to fight the irrational to follow through on this and which was going just about okay until last night's events.
Agree with the loss if control principle.
Also agree that I would never go back to being the individual I was in 2015, nor would I expect the narrative to go back to that. It would very much have to be 2.0 and even now, when I say I want her back I mean starting at the very foundational level of re-establishing a friendship in a slow timeframe, with the hope of getting to the point where we are both open to discussing and reducing the original issues.
But yes, I need to firstly detach and sort my mental health out and accept she will develop a relationship with OM for some time yet.
