Tonight, I just feel very overwhelmed. I have read thru some others sitches and although these people have found happiness on the other side of this, I am not ready to face that possible truth. Am I crazy? I know there have to be some where the MLCer comes back? I just need some hope.
I might feel this way as he came home, grunted hi, took a shower and has been locked in the room since. Dinner has come and gone with nary a peep. Not unusual, but sad nonetheless.
I need to stop wondering why, like is it her? Are they apart now? Is he regretful? Do I matter? Does our daughter? I don’t know. I need to let that wondering go.
What if don’t want to let go? It’s just harder for me, right? He left me.
