Your bicycle rides by the waters edge, the last drops of sunset splashing through the trees as twilight takes hold. Invigorating. Recharging.
I agree your H’s behaviour of litigation and running is weird. He is very much still running. I do wonder when/if he will tire.
It is nice to read your standing at an emotional precipice, looking, considering, planning, to let go of something.
For most times, letting go, feels like it is us that will fall off the cliff. Feelings. Consider and change your view. What you let go of falls away, you remain, overlooking the precipice watching it float away. Letting go is just letting go a piece, not letting go of you.
Originally Posted by Gerda
... I start to imagine -- what would it feel like if I didn't think about the past anymore, no matter how bad it was or how many mistakes I made or how my kids are suffering -- what if I just started now, this is day one.
Yes. Imagine. What would it be like to not have these feelings of the past. To accept, understand, forgive, and welcome your demons. Imagination is the first step in the creation of reality.
You stand atop the precipice, looking out, what do you need to let float away, to bring that fulfilling imagination to fruition.
You are strong, confident, and secure. Let go. You won’t fall.
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Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
Consider and change your view. What you let go of falls away, you remain, overlooking the precipice watching it float away. Letting go is just letting go a piece, not letting go of you.