i think, love, that you are really angry at yourself. i get it, and that's ok. feel the anger, then let it go so forgiveness can come in. pax, you're on a journey towards forgiving yourself. you didn't know what you didn't know. you believed what you believed in innocence and because of your own pure and true heart. there is nothing there to be ashamed of or to feel anything negative about. your pure and true heart are beautiful graces that you were born with. they help make you the unique and lovely soul that you are.

you are very strong dearest and will come through shining and bright. I believe in you. xoxoxo

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver