Hi CW. Thanks for stopping by. I really hope I find the one I’d like to spend my time with one day too. It’s a tough process for sure. When I say chemistry.... it’s not the fireworks and such. I know that does t always happen upfront. And actually didn’t for the one one I iced the most. I think j mean more compatibility mixed in with some excitement to see the person again
Tonight I went on another date with the guy I had the date with many years ago. To my surprise.... we really enjoyed each others company.. and we had a kiss....... and I kind of liked it. More than our first kiss many years ago.
I’m really trying to process my feelings. I didn’t expect this. I feared him kissing me and not feeling anything. And now I did feel..... something. And I don’t know what to do with it because I didn’t expect it.
It’s all so weird .
Like I said, everything is weird.
Oh well. Today was a really challenging day at work. We were short staffed with challenging cases. But things I realize: o am very respected at work. Everyone reaches out to me with difficulties and their challenges, including y new boss. A young nurse on our floor got physically attacked by a man withdrawing from alcohol last night..... so traumatizing.... and she came to me to share and get some support. I am someone others look up to...... yet I’m such a mess. Ironic. Test others see me as totally together .
And I have a patient who is the mother in law to someone famous. Can’t say, because that would be a violation of HIPAA...... but we had the most lovely conversation today about the life and everything going on in World.
Some days I think I’m a mess. Yet others think I’m totally together...... maybe I am not as bad as I think I am
