Hi, Pax. Having just had my H spew that I deserve nothing from our life together, your post struck me. How ridiculous, I think, that you have to prove that you were a contributing partner! I started reading many of your past threads, and they resonated so much with me, especially as I expect the D process to start soon and will probably need a L to protect myself from H. I can imagine he's going to be so mad about that. I'm now having many of the same feelings and doubts you were having when you retained a L. I'm also around your age with no children. I hope reading your words along with so many others' reassurances and responses will help me to get comfortable with firm boundaries and standing up for myself. It scares me, honestly, to think what could still be ahead, but I suppose there's no point in worrying about that now, as what will come to pass will come to pass. I feel like I can't make it through another week of this sometimes, and I know I'm at the beginning. I don't know how you and others here get through these drawn-out chapters! But you do, and I hope you get all the justice and fairness you so rightly deserve. Sending strength to you!
