Thorton --- I don't think I'm friendzoned... I think I'm just tolerated as a means to an end. He isn't the least bit interested in me period.
Ginger --- Thanks... I am still making mistakes and making excuses.
CW --- I should have stuck to it the first time I stated "is that all that you needed?... I need to get to work" and ended it. PERIOD. Why do I fall into small talk??? He clearly isn't interested. I've had 36hr to reflect and I'm just angry at myself. Nearly to the point that I just want to tell him to lawyer up and leave me alone. BUT, I'm holding all the cards right now... and with his guilt I could get more than he wants to give because he wants it over.
But that does not excuse my sloppiness yesterday. I MUST STOP WITH THE CHIT CHAT. I need to get back to making sure I've cut back to the barebones anything I send him.
I don't think there is any hope that this is salvageable. He is done. He is happy with the changes he has in his life now. I'm tied into the stress, exhaustion, long commute, feeling trapped. As LH stated he has a lot of anger and resentment to burn though... and he has ALOT. I have not seen him in nearly 7 weeks... and there is no reason to see him.
