He’s not the first blast from my past to come across my path on bumble. My best friends husbands good friend who I was talking to and went on a date with like 8 years ago popped up. We have kept in touch since, we always comment on each others dating profiles when we cross paths. This time, it turned into a date. Which wasn’t bad. I had to cancel my second because D 12 came home early. Our issue in the past was he wanted a wife and kids of his own and his own family, and no someone else’s. Well, he’s 47 now, never married and never had kids. But I still don’t think it’s going to work. I had to ask my self a few times if I even considered this because I was lonely. And I still don’t know the answer. Then I came across that lying coworker of y cousins that we had some dates and sex with. I swiped right to see if he did, I was curious. And he did. But I didn’t message. Apparently he’s ready for a relationship now. My past has been in my face on bumble. I should probably get off.
And this is really embarrassing. But I have a huge crush on my married coworker. And even worse his wife works there too! We have a chemistry and a banter and we just mesh so well. His most attractive qualities are that he is a dedicated family man and took his wife’s 3 sons as his own. He also just got the Florence nightingale award at work , and that should just speak to his character. He’s so funny, we have the same personality, and just click. The worst? My coworker always tell me “if he wasn’t married, you guys would make the cutest couple” and they have no clue how I feel about him. I’d never act on it, he would never act on it, but it has shown me that none of these other guys are the ones for me. They don’t get me excited, make me want to look good, make me stumble over my words a bit..... no one has made me feel like that in ages. No guys even seem to try anymore. I know having butterflies is for kids or having a man really be into your is maybe “unrealistic” but I really really want to experience that again. With an available man. No man has tried to “woo” me in a long time and just mesh with me so well in ages. Is it ridiculous to want that again? Am I acting like a naive kid? I don’t know.
I don’t know about much anymore. Man, I’m in such a weird place
