This weekend has been hard. I began getting the numbers of what has been spent for the last twelve months so we can determine what I will need to keep the home and live. This is something an attorney suggested so I will have knowledge. It's a lot of work. I did some today, and will do some tomorrow night and Tuesday.
H told me he was going with his guy friends for a getaway and will be back on Wednesday. I have my doubts about where he is. In the last few weekends he has gone to ride his bike at the beach with a friend that has an open social media page. I have looked to see if this friend has posted anything this weekend and there is nothing. My H has also not posted, when he usually does when he goes to do something. This makes me believe that he went somewhere else with an OW or in search for an OW.
I do not know how this all plays in his need to tell me he wants a divorce. I know, I know, it really does not matter why he asked for one, except I cannot help but wonder why now?
This time last year, he was out of the country going on almost three months with NC except to ask for money twice. Our D25 was across the country and I had not hit my GAL stride. So it is how it is this weekend, with Quarantine now, I am staying home like I did a year ago.
Why is this weekend so hard? I mean no one is here, not unusual. I certainly only knew where he was but had no idea what or who he was doing.
I need some help for me to understand why this seems harder.
