I am just going to vent/cry out here-

What happened to us? I can name many situations and look at how we were raised that can be part of these issues. But ultimately, living in a SSM, money secrets and work over family have caused this spiral. MLC seems evident but then I could see that he was “happy” to be going to be with friends.

I just think that he is too far gone. I know that means take care of me, but I WANT HIM. What is the matter with me? Why am I not enough?

I know these are questions no one can answer, they aren’t him. But I think I’m great, friendly, curious, presentable always waning to learn more. I just don’t understand how someone can blow up their life like this.

I am really struggling right now.