He does not have a pension. This is the crux of this. We walk away and I will get half of social security when he’s old enough to take it. I think with my job and alimony I could take care of the house. Maybe a roommate as suggested, possibly even our daughter if she does not move out right away. (She will be living here in the near future while looking for a job)
I just know so cal real estate is crazy. Buying a condo when I have a lovely back yard and privacy right now for less than half the price is brutal.
He just came home. I thought he was gone for the weekend. So he came in said hi, took a shower. I was cooking my dinner when he came out and he asked what I was making, I told him. He then told me he is going to the river to his friends house. He named off all of his friends that will be there. I think they are all divorced, never married, etc. these men were in our wedding party. As happy as I am that he told me, i am so sad that he is going to have a long weekend (he will be back Weds, then leave Thursday for ten days) and he looked relieved. He really doesn’t want to be with me. Maybe there isn’t another woman. Maybe this is all me. I am the cause of his unhappiness.
If not, then why can’t he love me? Why can’t he talk to me? Why not work it out?
