My SS20 is home. He gets about 3weeks of leave. I have been in touch and mentioned having dinner with me S19 and hopefully SD19 - before S19 leaves for college. I acknowledged he was surely busy and I'm understanding. He said he would get back to me. I know my H has missed him tremendously so I hope they are getting to spend loads of time together.
I miss my family. I will admit it guts me that H, OW and her kids are all hanging out with my SS20, his girlfriend and friends.
There is nothing I can do about it so its pointless to dwell. It helps to write it out so I can let it go.
I'm doing my best to drop the rope ---- I'm cool as a cucumber what interactions there are with H. I've kept it business. I don't ask anything of him. I don't express anything of myself. I will not chase, beg or plead.
I know that I'm stuck and I know its just going to take time.
