Thanks for the comments. I think is late to not believe because I kind of accepted all the blame when I was feeling so low in Germany. Only the last time we spoke I heard her say it was not 100% my fault. I don't know if something is changing inside her, I am not going to waste more energy trying to find out.
It's time to make things worse, as the man I want to be!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Me 29 W:29 M: 5yrs T:10yrs S:6 yrs S:1 yr BD: "I want a D" 08/09/19 Sep: 10/27/19