It's interesting that you ask this question May. I had an email drop into my inbox earlier and apparently everyone has an Apology Language. I took the quiz and the questions and results were quite interesting. (My apology language is needing that person to express regret for the emotional pain that they have caused (as opposed to, say, requiring an explanation, or offer payback/fixing).
I have had apologies from H about hurting me, but nothing near begging foregiveness, and they're certainly not daily, and probably not even weekly. I do know that he still harbours a lot of pain himself about the SSM, and I feel he does still justify his behaviours as an output from that. I do in part agree that at the start of the EA it was more excusable than 10 months later when he was still lying and being deceptive. I'm now asking myself if I have given H the right kind of apology for the pain I caused him.
{{{Wayfarer}}} - so pleased to read your latest updates. Your patience and demeanour has been amazing throughout. Onwards and upwards lady!! You so deserve to be adored by your H. x
M:49 H:49 T:20 M:18 D:16 D:14
EA: Feb 2019-May 2020 Separated: Mar-early Aug 2020 H asked to reconcile: Jun 2020 EA relapse: Oct/Nov 2020 Recon #2: since Nov 2020