I need to do yoga too!!! Proud of you FS. This is a good thing... I promise. I’m with everyone else on this. Your H is having his cake and eating it too. It’s not fair. He needs to let you go and stop using the kids as his reason for keeping you where you are. It has nothing to do with them...it’s all about him. I know this is going to be hard but you can do it and there will come a day when you will look back and wonder what took you so long. I promise!!! People told me that two years ago and I did not believe them. I could not even imagine living and loving a different life but here I am... As DnJ said... whole and healed. It is a great place to be and you are one of the main people who helped get me there. Love you so much for it!!! (((HUGS)))