I spoke with an attorney and have given a sketch of our finances and situation to see where I could stand in the event of a D. I am not filing, but I am the type of person who needs to have something to hold on to.
As I mentioned, I met and had a session with a DB coach. I only can afford three sessions, but I did get some good advice. I will speak with her in a couple of weeks, since he is going to go out of town this weekend (I’m sure to go to whoever he is with now) and when he returns, he is taking his vacation with his dad and uncle,
I also spoke to my counselor and I told her I was disappointed in our session. She really is wanting me to prepare that now since he has said it twice he means it. I know he believes that is true. I think that he has OW somewhere and this is a new relationship and he is “in love” . I realize all I can do is protect myself and GAL. I just want him in my life as my partner. I understand that we have to go through this to get to the other side (whatever that will be).
Does anyone have any help to get through the crippling fear? I am just a tidal wave of emotions, realizing that he believes being out of our marriage will make him happy. Like he will eventually leave and never return. He won’t have a key. He won’t wonder about me. I will be in the rear view mirror as he drives off to his happiness. If our daughter gets married I would possibly see him with someone else who he is happy with.
I am so sad. I can’t stop crying. I hate this feeling.
