If the "recreational drug" is causing you to obsess (and yes, thinking about him a lot is obsessing" then I would recommend finding another GAL activity. I tell LBSs that drink all the time, do not drink during your sitch. (I am staunchly anti-alcohol and anti-drug for full disclosure) because you need to be clear-thinking and sober-minded in order to DB well. Think of all the late-night drunken voice messages left for exs through the decades since answering machines (now voicemail) were popular. Many a jilted lover has regretted phone calls and leaving messages for their ex the next morning. (I may or may not be speaking from experience here.....-whistle whistle whistle-).
Plus there is a tendency to "mask" your pain through drugs and alcohol. The problem with that is the next day you wake up, feel like crap physically, and the pain was still there waiting for you when you came out of the high.
Again, none of us ever claimed that D was easy. That is why this forum exists. But it is all part of the process. Just get through your portion and have the L send it to H. REMEMBER: IT IS NOT YOUR JOB TO GET YOUR H TO FILL OUT HIS PORTION!!
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
