I'd like to hear your suggestions, May - I really would. I feel okay at the moment - able to protect myself, make my life as fulfilling as possible, and accept the reality that I don't have the marriage I wanted or hoped for and that is partly because of who my H is and how he treats me, and partly because of what I myself am willing to do or not do. I am not sure if I can or want to change that right now - but I would like to hear your insight on this.