I understand what you are saying. I think he is very naive about money, since I have always paid the bills. I know that on my list this week is meeting some attorneys so I can see where I stand. But I also think he is being kind, because he is “escaping” to something he thinks is better.
This whole 15 months I was encouraged because his BD was “I don’t want to be married anymore” he never said divorce. He also, keep saying he knows we have bills that need to be taken care of first.
It was like he was telling me, that although this is taking a while “I want a divorce eventually” I don’t want to get less than what I deserve and what he is offering, but if I put his money where his mouth is, wouldn’t that be going towards a divorce?
This has really upset me. I guess I thought I could DB and things would work.
On the plus side, I am going to tell him that he can move into the living room as D25 is coming home from being gone two years at grad school and she needs her bedroom. Now the weirdness that we lived with while she was home at the beginning of the lockdown has been addressed and it won’t be an unspoken mystery.
I really feel strange. Just this weekend I was thinking about redoing and getting new furniture for our bedroom and remodeling the bathroom and kitchen. I dont have any money, but I was dreaming. Was I sending out some energy that I wanted a divorce? I know that sounds dumb, but I am bewildered.
Sorry for the tangent, I am just so sad. No one except my counselor knows (and now our daughter) but I don’t want to talk to anyone.
