Well after almost 15 months of limbo, he has reiterated that he no longer wants to be married, I responded, "I know, you have told me that before" he replied, yes, I want a divorce.
I have so many feelings, friends. One is a little relief, if I am being honest. He told me that he does not want to be enemies, he wants me to stay in the house, he wants to pay off all of the bills, sell his racing eqt including his car and buy a condo. He does not know where he will go. He said he would keep paying for my insurance. He asked how much I need to live here.
I know 'believe half of what they say' I am not figuring that he really understands the costs. I suggested after 30 years, I would like him to consider MC, he at first said no, but then when i brought it up again, I said, if we went a few times, then I would know we have tried everything and then I would be ok getting a divorce.
I asked if he went to Mexico this weekend and he confirmed he did with his friend. SURE
I asked if there was someone else and he said no. HA!
I really think he is in the middle of MLC and I want to stand! I even suggested living as roommates, that it would be cheaper to add on a bathroom and bedroom and he could live here a separately but we would stay married.
I know I probably said things that were not DB, but I did remain calm. I did not cry, although now I am tearing up.
THis is a lot to take in even though I know more than I think he does. I do have time on my side a little, because we have a huge tax obligation, that needs to be cleared up first.
Does anyone have any comments/criticisms? I asked what about our 25 D and he said he called and told her yesterday and her comment was "whatever makes you happy" I told him, well what makes you happy does not make me happy.
