Ending Limbo

[Core]

I filed.

This was against my morals, my religion and all ideas I formed my entire life.

Part of my soul feels crushed because of this. I dont know how I'll look at my kids today when I see them, knowing I just ended their family unit. They barely had a glimpse at a normal family. Especially my son. I know my feelings will change with time. I know this has become the better option for them. Still, these two innocent little beings are going to run around like normal, not knowing this is all going to change very, very quickly. Why were they brought in to the world only to face hardship so young? They arent the only ones and people have it worse I know. Still, as they sing finger family and baby shark songs, I'll suffer on the inside.

This is horrible but it had to be done. The woman I loved is completely gone and I need to move on with the kids for my own sanity and to provide at least one clean, safe home.