My D situation has devolved big-time and I'm looking at another 6 months minimum to resolve this D. The day-to-day legal details are interesting (I feel like I could write a book about some of the crazy things happening - I wish I could share here but I'm hesitant while the legal proceedings continue) and do consume a significant part of my attention each day. But I'm not obsessive about it. I have a big week coming up here on that front, and hope things go well. But if they don't, I'll keep my head up and go forward from there.
A few months ago I started on an SSRI (non-addictive) for anxiety. It was a difficult choice for me to make, but has made a huge difference in my life. I knew someone else taking this medication, asked many questions, and decided to ask my doctor to try it. We don't talk much on the boards about medications, probably for good reason, but I wanted to share my experience a bit in case it helps others.
I don't feel like a different person. Mostly, I find myself spending a lot less time in mental ruts - obsessive, negative, worrying thinking patterns. I approach life with more equanimity. The techniques I've learned here and in IC come much more naturally. It feels liberating -- I realize how debilitating my anxiety has been not just in the past year, but in my life.
I think it was very important for me to work on myself first (IC, CBT, meditation, etc.) before trying medication. Now that my anxiety has lessened, I am able to focus on other issues in IC and I am making a lot of headway there also.
I'm hoping this is a temporary help to get me through a difficult phase. If not, I'm okay with that.
