This is where you have to decide if you want to be friends or not.
That's hard. I do miss him but I miss our closeness and sharing everything which now he does with someone else. I don't think I could be happy "just friends" - I'd think I'd be hoping for more which really wouldn't help my healing at all.
I truly don't think he realizes he texted me??? Like it was more out of habit. Sort of like when he would be at the house and randomly offer a motorbike ride --- it never came up again... and again the time he was at the house and randomly said "hey do you need me to make more dog treats for you?" --- it never came up again.
Its like these words just come out of his mouth in the moment and I truly believe in the moment he means them but then there are no actions.
That's what I think the kennel thing was too - random.
I'm accepting what it is ---- its not changing my course of action. Just interesting behavior on his end. I'm at least to a point where I'm not trying to read anything in to it... its meaningless white noise from him.
