It has always been that sense of guilt and responsibility for our problems that has lead me to believe the one path to R was to change myself and show her the love I did not show at home because of all my problems.
That's just your brain trying to get you to pursue. It's a defense mechanism.
Originally Posted by Pack_19
I am so tired of feeling trapped in this situation, of taking guesses on whether she is with OP or going throw a miserable time, if she ever thinks about me.
Total waste of time and energy.
Originally Posted by Pack_19
I have all these activities in mind to make my GAL amazing but I am paralyzed by the financial debt we have with the new house in Germany and my responsibilities as a father (I feel if I go out and put more time on me it is at the expense of time with C)
Think of the analogy with the oxygen mask on the airplane. You need to save yourself in order to save your children.
Originally Posted by Pack_19
I have now my certification and things are going good at work, I am more in shape than ever, where do I go next? social activities? church? going out with friends?
Social activities and hanging out with friends is attractive.
