No changes on WAW - Pack_19 Part II

[Pack_19]

You've been trying to "nice your way back" for months.

It's not working, it will never work.

You cannot placate her, you cannot "prove your love" through acts of giving and support.

You also cannot push her away by withdrawing support.

She has chosen her course of action, and as of right now, *nothing* you do will impact it.

Your shortest path back together is to go the opposite direction.

You need to make things *worse* before they can get better.

Are you willing to do that?

It has always been that sense of guilt and responsibility for our problems that has lead me to believe the one path to R was to change myself and show her the love I did not show at home because of all my problems. As Sandi always tells me, it is the wrong timing, if there is ever to be a good one it is not now.

I am sooo tired of my useless behavior and my mistakes. I have my first IC session in Spain next Monday. Let's see how that turns out. I am so tired of feeling trapped in this situation, of taking guesses on whether she is with OP or going throw a miserable time, if she ever thinks about me. I have all these activities in mind to make my GAL amazing but I am paralyzed by the financial debt we have with the new house in Germany and my responsibilities as a father (I feel if I go out and put more time on me it is at the expense of time with C)

I am more than willing to do the *worse*, I need it like fresh air because I am suffocating in my own same old patterns.

I have now my certification and things are going good at work, I am more in shape than ever, where do I go next? social activities? church? going out with friends?

Thanks for your help LH. I am no safety net for anyone, I might have my issues and character to tame but I deserve a person who is willing to fight for me.

GALing like a teenager!