One of the basics of DBing is to GAL and focus on yourself. I feel like this would be an excellent time for you to refocus on you. I know it is hard because of the pandemic but what are at least small things you can do just for yourself, nothing to do with your H or your kids? I know even tiny things like a long bath or a new novel or watching what I want on TV without asking anyone else feels good. Taking time for yoga or a face mask or a long chat or Zoom cocktails with a friend. What are you doing for yourself, not in terms of watching his behavior, but just for you?
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Me (46) H (42) M:14 T:18, D9 & D11 4/19 - 12/19: series of escalating BDs 9/20 - present: R and piecing