Bttrfly--Absolutely sticking to my own lane...really, what else is there to do?
Gerda--You always have a unique perspective...I never considered her change as "fighting for me"...even the possibility of that brought a smile to my face.
SBJ--As I said on your own thread, your continued faithfulness to God is an encouragement to me...as I feel like I am really struggling in my own faith these days (and church being closed hasn't helped)...w is currently totally hostile to the church at present, so any expression of my faith is currently a source of conflict.
UPDATE
W has increased her self-isolation from the family.
She goes to bed right after dinner and then wakes up at the crack of dawn so as to avoid being in the bathroom at the same time as me or being with me when I go to bed or wake up.
A lot of the time, she walks around the house with headphones on listening to music or books.
I try to engage at a minimum in a little small talk with her every day, like a roommate, but nothing intimate and certainly no relationship conversations. And of course, no touching.
The one time per day where she consistently engages with the family is at the dinner table.
Most days I am good and accepting of my situation, and busy with my own work, life and the kids. But some days the whole thing just depresses me. When I feel lonely, I call one of my friends. This is what it is. One day at a time.
Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids 2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong 2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2 2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving
