FS...I am so envious of your Croatian vacay!! I had a three-week trip to Croatia planned for September with my sister & BIL and another couple. Unfortunately, we’ve had to postpone it due to the CV19 requirement that we self-isolate for 14 days upon our return but, even more relevant, our friend who is coming with us is immunocompromised so can’t risk travelling while the virus is still out there circulating. I’m making the best of it though. I’m finally getting the damage repaired that happens when one carries large twins to term...hoping to be able to wear a bikini by the time we go...lol. Also...one silver lining that I’ve been telling myself is that maybe by the time we go, I will have a plus one and it will be six of us instead of five.
Glad you reached out to your mom. I get not wanting to tell her about the separation right away...especially if you haven’t been in close contact until now. Sorry to hear about your grandma. I didn’t know mine that well either but it was a blow when she passed. I know she loved me lots. I don’t think you were selfish when you wrote about the origin of your grief...just honest...and human.
RE: Dating apps. I don’t think you are doing it wrong. I just think you have to kiss a lot of frogs (or at least have coffee with them) before you find your prince. I have had a lot of first dates but am holding out for some kind of spark with someone that makes me want to have a second date. So far, that’s been pretty elusive but I spent last night talking with the latest candidate who I thought wasn’t that interested but confessed last night that he is really interested and figures I won’t like him because he likes me already. Hmmm...turns out that even the guys who seem the most self-assured, are hiding some insecurities we didn’t think they could have. I was pretty surprised when he told me that. Even if his pics are five years old, I am pretty darn sure I will be physically attracted to him and if our phone conversations are any indication, I am the most hopeful I have been so far about the prospects of a second date. Anyway...don’t get discouraged...I’m sure you will meet someone cool when you are supposed to. (((HUGS)))
