UR, Ive been thinking a lot about your post. I’m going to get to it. I miss you.
However, something happened and I am freaking out. Something I dearly did not want to happen. My friends are unavailable, and I just need to put this somewhere
D13 and I went to dinner and went for ice cream afterwards. We get out of the car and I see M, his son, 2 women I think, and 2 or 3 little girls about his sons age outside the place eating ice cream. I quickly tell D 12 to get back in the car and we left. She saw them too and didn’t want to see them either.
Talk about getting kicked when you are down. I feel sick. I had him blocked all over the place. Because I knew I couldn’t handle seeing him and his son with another woman and children . I mean they could have been friends, but I doubt it. D12 says “does he have a whole new family?!?”
I seriously just feel so much pain right now it’s unbearable. I just knew I could never handle seeing that. I feel like someone put a knife directly in my heart. Dramatic, I know, but right in my life was not the time to see that.
And I got to go on tonight not showing too much pain in front of her.
