Excellent questions and advice. I’ve been at this OLD way too long. I try not to rule out people over petty stuff. I don’t need a perfect guy, perfect looking, etc. because I am non of the above myself. But important stuff for me is that if you are a father, you are an involved father. Employed is pretty essential for me. And not a whole bunch of baggage you just aren’t carrying well. I probably swipe from a 6 up. And I do get lots of responses. I’m not what I used to be physically, but neither are these guys, lol. I legit have no clue what went on in that guys head, but whatever.
It’s exhausting . I have 10 days without my kid and I have no dates lined up. I kind of quit. I’m burnt out of first dates . And I surely won’t be paying like again. I’m just worn out, but I refuse to settle. I just can’t.
Maybe it really is true. My time isn’t until my daughter leaves for college. I get so much anxiety now anyways trying to figure out when I actually have free time to go out on the date. Aside from these 10 days to myself, I rarely get time for myself.
Last night I had dinner with a friend, and it was awesome. Next Thursday I have plans with coworkers, and Friday, plans with another friend. It helps a lot to have some social interaction.
I just get said when I realize all I have is me. But I realize this is also by choice. And when I say by choice, I chose not to continue dating people who are not good matches.
I’m sad. D12 is leaving me for 10 days on Tuesday. Longest I ever went without her.
Oh, and yesterday I had a surprise delivery from a friend that sent me a 12 pack of craft beer form a local brewery. It seriously warmed up my heart so much, I was again reminded I am not dead inside yet
