You’re at 55-45! I think you’ve made huge progress
I understand your worries about your girls. I think the children might be angry, they will probably have big feelings, but they will be okay in time. In my opinion, you have to put yourself first, even before your girls in your decision making. It is your life. You are not living your life for your children. Another thing is you are leading by example. However, if I were in your shoes, I can see another possibility of waiting it out until the girls are older then file for D. But then I would think I would be doing myself a disservice by caving into staying in a M that I no longer believe in, and the pretense of a M for the sake of my kids would kill my soul.
50/50 with the children is obviously not ideal. Few days ago I was calculating the number of hours per week outside of school time they have. Minus sleep time, there really aren’t that many hours left. And to divide that in half of course it’s worse. I can only see it as if it happens, we will be forced to really cherish those hours we have with them. Make those hours count. And I believe that to be the case for the children too. I know when I leave them for a few hours, they appreciate me more when I come back. Lol. I see it as a practice to let go, because they will grow up one day and have their own identities other than “wooba’s children.”
Well, clearly I’m advocating for you to fire your H...but like wayfarer said, you do you. You get to wherever you want in your own timeline. Whatever it is, I am here to cheer you on virtually.
