Hey FS, you sound very thoughtful. Do you think IC might be helpful for a little while? Just a suggestion You seem like you are addressing some of your historic issues anyway. I like the way you have reached out to your family and friend, your post about your H's family and your feelings of loss about them makes it obvious how much you feel that lack in your life. Which is healthy to address. I have a lot in common with you here I think. All my family live a very long way away. I don't contact them much. My mum drives me crazy if I have to see her too much! I probably have a few issues from childhood stuff with her, which is absolutely normal! But I just don't feel that close to my family, a big time difference makes that difficult even with technology. I have not yet told my family about H leaving, and I look forward to having that out in the open because it's a big secret to have kept for so long and probably has led to me not contacting them as often as I should have. My best childhood friend I have also hardly contacted, it's partly the time difference but also because I have had so much to tell her it's difficult knowing where to start. But that's on my to do list. I'm glad you contacted your friend again, that is so great to just pick up where you left off. True friendship is like that
Do you think you might try to initiate more new friendships? I know you're probably WAH since lockdown which makes seeing colleagues etc tricky. I've joined a bunch of meetups and met new people that way. Sometimes you just need extra social contact in your life. Like me I bet your main friends are mums who are busy weekends and evenings when you'd like to do stuff because your kids are with their dad. Anyway, just a suggestion, I know for me meeting new people has been a great way to feel less lonely. Take care of yourself xx
You seem like you are addressing some of your historic issues anyway. I like the way you have reached out to your family and friend, your post about your H's family and your feelings of loss about them makes it obvious how much you feel that lack in your life. Which is healthy to address. I have a lot in common with you here I think. All my family live a very long way away. I don't contact them much. My mum drives me crazy if I have to see her too much! I probably have a few issues from childhood stuff with her, which is absolutely normal! But I just don't feel that close to my family, a big time difference makes that difficult even with technology. I have not yet told my family about H leaving, and I look forward to having that out in the open because it's a big secret to have kept for so long and probably has led to me not contacting them as often as I should have. My best childhood friend I have also hardly contacted, it's partly the time difference but also because I have had so much to tell her it's difficult knowing where to start. But that's on my to do list. I'm glad you contacted your friend again, that is so great to just pick up where you left off. True friendship is like that 