yes, I think you do have the absolute right to decide what this means to you and how you feel about it - I really do.
I also think that most angry men do not use sex - especially non-consensual sex - to express their anger. It's so far outside the bounds of normal behaviour - even angry, destructive behaviour - that in your shoes I would be looking for actions other than an expression of remorse to reassure me it would not happen again. Feeling remorseful is one thing - but if this is a way he shows control and dominance when he gets angry, you need to know he is taking action so that the next time he gets angry he doesn't do this again. I would expect at the very least he discloses his actions to his IC and enquires with whoever is prescribing him his supplements if this could have an affect and takes their advice. You have been advised by a professional not to have guns in the house. I worry that you are underestimating this man's capacity for violence. Normal men don't rape when they're angry.
