[Georgiabelle]

Thanks so much KML, Juju, and LH19. I appreciate your input and you are all correct. It’s okay to whine here. Yay! And Juju, you are correct. I mean while it opens doors, online dating in itself is based on well...appearances. I’m fairly secure and confident, and I just want someone I can be myself with and vice versa. And I want him to be relatively happy with his life. And yes LH, I certainly have to bring stuff to the table. And if I’m being honest, GB as a human being is fairly easy to date. However, GB and her life? Eh. Not so much. I really do think I have an idea of what I want and need.....I’m just not sure how or if I will find it. But I gotta keep looking. I know it’s such a strange time and it has been a struggle at times mentally (just like it has been for so many). I’ve cried a few times over the last couple of weeks. So.....now for an update. Y’all ready for this (cheerleading song:-)

Had a great vacation last week. The kids and I had a blast with my niece and nephew. We enjoyed the ocean, talked until 3am, searched for shells and played board games. I. Can’t. Complain. The weather and ocean were glorious. I’ve never met a beach I didn’t like.

So I decided to put up an OLD profile about a month ago. I left it up for 8 days. I had 2 fun dates but not really clicking on a more than friendly level. One guy asked me out again. Actually he wanted to take me on a trip but since I had only met the man for an hour and a half and given him a hug, that didn’t feel like a yay for me. 2nd date was a former national news anchor (I kept thinking he looked like he belonged on television but I really don’t watch anything). We had a drink on a patio. We had good convo. However, he didn’t ask me out again. On the 8th day a guy pops up on my suggestions or whatever terminology they use and I just had to reach out. I told the universe if he replies that day, I’ll reply back and then delete my profile. Not because of him but because I was gonna delete it anyway. I think my capacity is low on sites haha-even though I love meeting people. He messaged back and asked me out.

So I met him and we kind of clicked. As in he asked me out again at the end of the first date. I see him a 2nd and we just kind of hit it off. So much so that after about 2 weeks I started feeling a bit...scared and overwhelmed. He lives about an hour away. Something transpired (I’ll skip details but for someone like me, it’s significant. Nothing he did. Was something I did). We had a conversation and I thought we were done. He called me twice on vacation but I didn’t answer. I didn’t even notice he had called. Until I had half a margarita (I think I’ve told you guys I really can’t drink much and it was 98 outside). Long story short he wanted to talk when I got back. I agreed and well...he gave me flowers and told me really liked me and that I had to be honest and communicate with him. We’ve talked on the phone every day and seeing him Wednesday. He’s funny yet intense. Kind of nerdy like me.

So last week (remember the only guy I’ve really dated post D-New guy? We dated for 2 years). I liked a video of a song he recorded and he asked if we could meet. He lives in another state. I met him last night and I laughed so hard I cried. We ended weirdly but it was fun to catch up. Ended with a huge He wants to meet Friday night. I dunno. He called last night after we met and earlier today.

Who knows what’s happening here or if anything is happening. At least I’m speaking to humans. Thanks for reading along this crazy. Xoxo