LH - I hear your point, I may have been driven by fear before, but not any longer. There is calmness, I don't think about him or his moods any more. I really understand that he is on a journey and I am too. I am committed to the next 6 months, but I am leaving the ending open right now.
I feel the right thing to do is to try, and also to explore what is best for me. I am positive that I have made changes and open to making more - but - if he does not, or is not able to - then there is no point to continue the marriage because it will just continue to be dysfunctional and I do not want to go thru any of this again.

Sage - Thank you for the reminder to make this something he needs to earn, I mean really work for. I am not going to make this easy. I am being me. And I have woken up to his manipulation - the tears, the hugs, the love bombing - not working. I just continue what I am doing, calmly. I will watch his show, but not participate, and its quite the show sometimes. If he does not start counseling on his own, then there is no point to even wait for the 6 months. For where we are at right now, and if there is no efforts, then clearly asking him to leave is the next step. Thank for your advice on my journey~soooo appreciated


M:50 H:49
D:16 S:13
M:23 T:25
BD: Feb 25th 2020
EA/PA: Dec 2019 - June 11, 2020
Behind every broken woman is a broken man...