Yes, you need to be kind to yourself. Of course you feel that way sometimes. Is there something you can do in those times to help yourself work through it and reestablish your force field? Like indulge for some amount of time-- let yourself be sad and experience and name those feelings-- and then move on to another activity, like meditation, gardening, exercise? Call or text a friend? I just wonder if you can find a way (or several ways) to reliably help yourself pull out of the mini black hole and build back up your force field, it might be less unsettling when it happens.
My D10 made madeleines the other day-- they were delish. We used mini muffin pans since we don't have a madeleine pan and it worked really well.
xoxo M
Me (46) H (42) M:14 T:18, D9 & D11 4/19 - 12/19: series of escalating BDs 9/20 - present: R and piecing
