Everyone here is telling you not to have an R chat right now.
You still want to have one.
I did what you did for 6 months. Then I stopped because it was just causing me extra pain for nothing. That's what it will do for you.
I am no longer willing to talk about the R. I am no longer willing to discuss something that will cause me pain for no reason. If W decides to come back and initiates that R talk, that would be different. But it's not the case right now. Neither is it for you.
Good luck, man. I'm sorry for all the pain you will experience.
