So 2 and a half weeks in since I gave H the go ahead to apply for the consent order and get things finally tide up and H is now starting to act a little off. I don’t know perhaps I’m just reading into things a bit to much as you know what these Mid lifers are like, being all Nice and then stab and your down. Except I don’t see what he has to achieve from being nice now. If he’s applied for the order (only time will tell) then he’s almost got what he thinks he wants. My reason for suspicion ( and I hate to say hope. Hope that he’s moving through the tunnel again. Yep I know try to not put to much on the positive signs) is this week he’s been more observant of the dog, his dog that he’s hardly paid attention to for the last few years. He’s noticed how he’s become stiff and needs to take his walks slow. He’s taking a small interest in one of my cats and he told D right in front of me as he was leaving to look after me and give me plenty of cuddles because I deserve them. Wow is that a hint of care or is it guilt? Ummm. He then made a passing comment about not being touched but implied it was ok for me to which I didn’t really pick up on at first, not until he had left. I am very suspicious but curious as H has been firmly in his own bubble for so long. But I’m keeping my head down, staying friendly but at a distance and observing whilst keeping my guard up and trying really hard to keep my hopes at zero. This could hurt if I don’t so I’m going to keep doing me.
