reposting from my thread: i'm glad that you've found what i've written to be helpful to you. Generally, I think we are all doing better than we think - or feel - we are at any given moment. I didn't live with my ex for more than three weeks after BD, and he was away for most of that, but the years leading up to it, particularly the last two were really, really hard years, where I knew something was going terribly wrong and had no way of stopping the runaway train.

Keep doing whatever you can that will bring you peace.

xoxoxo

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver