Blue I am really sorry you had a breakdown last night and that you are struggling.
Originally Posted by BlueSea
The ignorant bliss I had enjoyed before all this is gone, I know there is a beast inside of him that I will never be able to un-see... and that has changed everything.
The ignorant bliss I had enjoyed before all this is gone, I know there is a selfishness inside of her that I will never be able to un-see... and that has changed everything.
I took your sentence and changed a few words to fit my situation. Prior to Sept 2014 I enjoyed the ignorant bliss of marriage. Not that my marriage was perfect because if it were I wouldn't be here, but it was ignorant bliss. Now after almost six years everything has changed. There is no innocence in anything. My world (the world) has completely changed. Not that it is better or worse it just lacks ignorant bliss. I am so more aware now that the world is a mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees if you let it. Again, this isn't to say everything is bad. I am closer now with my kids then I have ever been. I have had some of the best times over the last two years since I have been divorced. I have met some incredible people over the last 2-5 years. I am just not sure whether I will ever see the world again through child like eyes again. There are some scars that run really deep.
You have been through a lot the last 5 months. Please be kind and patient with yourself.
