Ring and piecing is like putting on a bandaid, ripping it off, over and over and over again. It is work. And it is hard, arduous, difficult work that requires you to be ON all the time.
Relationships are hard work. Old bad habits are extremely hard to keep down. They are the easy path.
I am not expecting answers to these question, but rather for you to contemplate:
1) Has your W fallen back in love with you? 2) Does she look at you with admiration? 3) Does she desire you? 4) Is she meeting your needs? Are you meeting hers? 5) Whats missing in the R? What can you do to make this happen? 6) Is IC and MC working? 7) Are you both listening to each other? 8) Has she went through a personal growth phase like you? 9) Is there passion? Is there excitement?
Those are just off the top of my head.
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712