Thankful for all the pushes in the right direction.

I'm finally realizing that no matter what I do... its controlling and manipulative. Even when I'm doing what he asked me to do.

His last words to me... email your atty and get me a settlement offer. So why when I do exactly that and had to ask for some documents he gets upset telling me I don't ever listen to him but that's okay he's used to me ignoring him by now.

WTH... [me doing massive eyeroll].

I'm sure LH will interpret for me.

I'm glad I can finally see that the ONLY thing I can do that is not going to be percieved as controlling and manipulating is doing nothing... sigh.

I gathering docs and contacting atty to get the S agreement going. His verbal agreement does appear to favor me greatly. So it would be dumb for me to drag out and have him change his mind. Don't worry my atty will need to approve of everything.

H is getting resentful that he is paying for timeshare (he bought it) and S18 car. His truck need $$$$ work. Stated if he had $700 more a month he could buy a new truck or could have bought a bigger house.

Of course I'm thinking... well if you were with a woman with higher earning potential you could have had all that... wait you did... you had a bigger house and I told him to go buy the truck he wanted.

Maybe he is seeing a tiny bit of the grass isnt greener... but I understand I'm still being blamed for that.

In need to write out over and over.... do nothing... do nothing... anything you do is seen as controlling and manipulating him. Let him go... let him go...

I'm starting to see it all more clearly.

Peace and love.