I have been on both side, and they are each difficult in their own way. How long have you been having this uneasy feeling? Has it been ongoing, or did it just begin? Hopefully it will pass with time. No harm, no foul.
I am a big proponent of journaling. I watched a video about a month ago, and it said one of the problems with journaling, is that keeps you focused on the issue(s). I had never considered that, but it seems to slow down the healing process. I wonder if you being proactive on the forums stirs some difficult emotions from when you were in the midst of your sitch. You are a tremendous asset to these forums, but it shouldn't come at the cost of your inner peace.
Just food for thought.
I think that is a good point related to journaling. I journaled extensively during my first sitch back in 2005. I do think the benefits outweigh the problems with it. For instance, being active here helps me stay up on my changes, and reminds me of what can happen if I were to ever backslide.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
