How? How do I move forward. I absolutely loathe , despise and hate that phrase.

I keep hearing what to do. Then whatever I have done is wrong or not right or not enough.

I talked about a wall before. It feels like going through that wall wouldn't matter. Yeah, I should have a life not centered on "US". Why even have marriage then.

I don't want anyone else. I don't want to try. Dating was crappy as a teen. With this PC and "woke crap" I don't see it as any better.

H (me) 56 ; W 54 ; M 32 ; D 32 ; D 30 ; S 21 ; Grandkids: 12, 11, 10, 8, 1