H has appt with atty in over a week. He is moving this forward.
I've done my best to give him time and space. I have broke NC in the past with regret. I know ultimately nothing has really changed. Everyone here has always pointed out that he was going to D me.
I knew it was coming but the reality is just overwhelming for the moment. I struggle with wanting to be whining and begging and pleading ---- but those things just show I'm low value and who wants someone of low value.
I will get through this but I so didn't want it to happen.
